Sunday, February 24, 2013

Dear Gwen: Month Fifty-Eight

Dear Gwen,

Today you are fifty-eight months old, also known as TWO MONTHS AWAY FROM FIVE.  Wow!

 This past month has not been an easy one.  With your preschool teacher constantly reminding us, and you, that kindergarten is just around the corner, she is really working hard with you and the other older kids to try and get you ready for "the big school".  More self-sufficiency, more emotional regulation, more social skills.  This hasn't been easy for you, and it's been hard for your teacher and your parents to help you understand that although it seems like we're mad at you, we're actually just trying to give you the tools you need to make your kindergarten life easier.  Life is going to be pretty different when you are one of a group of 22 students with only one teacher.  And while it may seem to those reading this post that kindergarten is waaaayyyyy off in the future?  There are four more months of preschool to help you get the preparation that you need.

Your dad and I went to a workshop last week about encouraging you to manage your feelings.  About 90% of the things we learned there, we are already doing - and have been doing since you were a wee baby.  One could view this as encouraging ("We're already doing all the right stuff, yay!") or the opposite ("We're doing everything right and IT'S NOT WORKING!").  We did learn a few more strategies that we can put into practice, though.  One thing I have been doing in the past few days is giving you the message that any kind of feeling is okay to have, but certain expressions of your feelings (hitting, shouting, hurting words) are not okay - and that if your feelings are making you want to do those things, you have to remove yourself, have some alone time, and come back when you feel ready to use kind words.  I have to be disciplined as well, giving you the consequence of being sent to your room immediately and every time when you do any of the above things or, a perennial favourite in our house, you shout "NO!" at me when I am trying to get you to do something.  This might mean that we get out of the house a little later, or have to cancel plans with friends at the last minute, or otherwise disrupt our day - but the hope is that short-term pain will mean long-term gain if you are able to improve your emotional outbursts.

Your teacher said something the other day that really struck my heart.  She told me about an incident where you had wanted a turn at the art table, but the table was full and you needed to wait.  Although you should know by now that you will eventually get a turn, and that there are lots of other things to keep you happy while you waited, you had a very emotional (and loud) outburst.  "When you go to the big school, you're going to meet lots of new kids and even new teachers.  If you yell and cry and get upset all the time, they are not going to know what a lovely person you are."  I guess that comment really resonated with me about my own past, where I went to school for 13 years with the same group of children, all of whom decided within the first week of knowing me that I was not worth knowing, and none of whom ever changed their minds - despite the fact that I was clearly not the same person in Grade Ten as I was in kindergarten.  I don't know if your school career will echo mine - we do still plan to move in the next few years, though the theme of our last several years has been HA HA GOD LAUGHS AT YOUR PLANS - but nevertheless, I do know it's true that kids make their first impressions very quickly and don't often change them.  So it made me really sad to think of you not being able to make good friends because of your difficult behaviour and your big personality.

But enough with the doom and gloom!  Lots of other stuff is happening. We discovered that a local gymnastics facility has a Saturday afternoon drop-in for $5, and we have attended this a few times - you love it, as it is totally unstructured play time where you get to do whatever you want for however long you want to (at least until the hour is up).  You have almost finished ballet class and will soon be moving on to swimming lessons.  You are doing really really well at your piano lessons: you have learned to play C scale and are getting quite adept at reading and playing the songs from your book.  Practices for the upcoming Sunday School Talent Show have begun, and you are participating in a "tableau" and a group song - your Sunday School teacher was thrilled to point out to me a few nights ago that you know all the words to the song already!  Pretty impressive for a girl who can't read yet!

Our trip to California is coming up pretty quickly - only three weeks away.  And then right after that it will be full-swing into birthday party planning time!  I feel like March and April are going to go by really fast.

You continue to really impress me with your crafting abilities.  This year for the first time you designed your Valentine's cards for friends and family all by yourself.  I gave you one suggestion - to use a punch to make hearts - and you ran with it.  You did often ask for help with certain aspects of construction, such as rounding the corners of the cards, but the majority of design and assembly was all you.  You even wrote your name in all the cards.  And you enjoyed the whole process, which is just as important!

You have also continued to enjoy Perler beads and have made a lot of creations with them.  You got a neat craft at Christmas where you have to push small squares of fabric into a foam shape to make a wall hanging - it took me only a moment to explain how to do it, and you were off and running and worked on it for a good 20 minutes.  You are also really into drawing and colouring recently, which is somewhat new - it took you a long while to get interested in those activities.  One thing I find funny is that if you are not given other prompts, you will draw the same picture with the same colours over and over: blue sky, yellow sun, green grass, and 4 red flowers.

 One of the best things about your creative streak is that when you show off your work, chances are that you will say one of my favourite Gwenisms: "Lookat!"  It's all one word, and it is always said in the same jubilant tone.  You have outgrown some of your learning-to-talk habits - for example, crayons are no longer "cunnins," - but "Lookat" and "breffikt" are still in the lexicon, as is "restaronnit."  And I have no plans to teach you otherwise.

Sometimes your empathy and love astound me.  On Valentine's Day, you opened a package from your Grannie and Grandpa, and a card from your Gramma and Grandpa, and a box of treats from us, and then suddenly realized that we were not opening similar piles of stuff.  "Where are your presents?" you asked us, and when we replied that we didn't have any, you immediately handed us some chocolates from your own package.  

Well, I guess that's it for this month, my girl.  As always, I love you a million, billion, kajillion, and very-close-to-five, and I always will.


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Beautiful post Laura!
Gwen will do just fine in kindergarten in the fall, I just know it :)
Ella has been having friendship "problems" since girl from preschool who is now in her K class will only be friends with one child whom is also Ella's friend, she refuses to play with Ella and it really hurts Ella's heart (mine too)!



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